It was two months after Kayden Dalton started his career at police school in London.
He was determined to learn well, make a lot of progress and achieve good results.
He was also determined to never forget the ordeal on his first day.
After he’d finished his massive wee at the urinal that day, he’d sworn to himself that this was really the last time.
He wouldn’t let something like this happen to him again.
He was a grown man now and was to become a police officer.
And a police officer with enough self confidence would speak up about his needs, even if he was embarrassed about them.
Little did he know what struggle he would face in his very first exam.
And surely not because of the exam questions…
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“Well, did you study enough?”, Joe asked.
“Mmmh, I guess…”, Kayden replied and took a big gulp of his large water bottle.
“I certainly did”, Jamie said and made his fingers crack.
“Oh, stop it, that sounds gross!”, Joe exclaimed.
Jamie grinned.
“Alright, mate. But then you should stop wandering around like a tiger in a cage. That’s making me nervous.”
“Sorry, it's just the nerves. Exams always stress me out so bad and since it's the first one, it’s extremely stressful.”
“Yeah, I know… Look, Kayden, you’d better stop chugging your water down like that.”
“Why? It’ll be another hour until the exam starts. I’ll get the water through and out again before we even have to enter the exam room”, Kayden replied and took another large sip.
Jamie and Joe exchanged a worried glance.
“Mate, I guess you’ve confused the information somehow…”, Jamie began but bit his lip and ceased speaking.
“What are you talking about?”
“Well, the exam doesn’t start at 10 am like you think. In fact, it starts at 9 am”, Joe explained.
“What? Are you serious? No, you're only kidding me. Oh, stop it. I already thought you’re serious about this.”
Kayden laughed a little but his colleagues didn’t join in.
“Actually, we are pretty serious”, Joe told him.
“It’s ten to nine now. We’ve just got enough time for a quick pit stop in the toilets before the exam starts”, Jamie said.
“WHAT?? No, that can’t be true. That can’t be happening right now! You’re joking. The information sheet about the exam said 10 am, I am very sure of that!”
But while Kayden spoke in an increasingly panicked voice, he knew very well that his friends were right.
They had to be right, they wouldn’t have started moving if they weren’t, right?
“No, no, no, no. That’s got to be a mistake. It just got to be!”
“Come on now, maybe it’ll help you to take a pee. You’ve only got this chance, so don’t waste it”, Joe advised.
“Oh Lord, no.”
Kayden felt that he started sweating.
He began moving as if he had been programmed to move because he didn’t feel his legs moving at all.
Distraught, he glanced down at the water bottle in his hands.
It carried 750 ml and he must have knocked back a good 400 ml of it just because he had been bored while waiting for the exam to start.
He stuffed the bottle inside his backpack and stumbled after Joe and Jamie, following them into the nearest gents of the building.
Suddenly he felt so stressed that he felt as if he wasn’t even able to pee but somehow he managed to empty his bladder, his eyes closed, beads of sweat on his forehead.
His bladder wasn’t even full yet, of course not.
But it soon would be, during the exam.
And his security pee he just had wouldn’t change that.
The liquid was going to process through his body fast and the exam would last for some hours…
“Damn…!”, he exclaimed.
“Hey, it’s gonna be alright, okay?”, Joe said and patted his shoulder as they emerged from the gents again.
“Yeah, if you have to pee during the exam, just ask Inspector Blue for a quick break, maybe he’ll even say yes”, Jamie added.
Right, as if it was that easy, Kayden thought bitterly.
Until now I never actually did dare to tell Blue I had to use the toilet. How am I going to be asking him in front of all the others?
He couldn’t possibly imagine how he would be able to ask.
He simply would have to hope for the best and hold it if he needed to pee.
A few minutes later, they all sat in the exam room.
Kayden had taken a seat in the back of the room, he didn’t want to have to complete the exam at the front directly under Blue’s supervision.
The walk into the room had been the hardest to make.
Kayden had been close to just going to Blue and pretending he didn’t feel well and couldn’t take the exam today but then he decided not to.
He was honest, he never skipped school back then by saying he felt sick, like so many of his fellow students did.
And he wanted to get the exam over with, it had stressed him out extremely during the last week.
Sweating and dreading what would happen in the following hours, he’d sat down and taken out pen, pencil, rubber and his water bottle, not without a silent, ironic snort.
He was sure he wouldn’t feel the slightest wish to drink any water in the next two and a half hours but well, one could never know.
“Alright, everyone is here and seated, as far as I see. And everyone’s brought their bags to the front, good. Please let me remind you that it is not permitted to wear a wrist watch of any kind, so if you haven’t already taken it off, please do so. If you’ve taken your mobile phones or any other electronic devices, please switch them off and put them in your bags. Well, apart from that there’s not much to say. As you can see the exam sheets are already on your desks. You may turn them over, the time starts now. Good luck everyone.”
With that, Inspector Blue sat down behind the desk at the front.
Paper rustled as everyone turned their exam sheets around.
Kayden felt panic welling up in him.
He imagined that he could feel how his bladder was filling up with urine every second but of course that was rubbish.
He was just panicking, he shouldn’t do that.
But he wasn’t able to think rationally anymore.
Fear had taken over, the questions on the sheet blurred in front of his eyes.
Hastily he wrote his name down at the top.
At least that was something useful he could do.
Then Kayden literally forced himself to read question one.
It wasn’t difficult at all, he had studied enough.
So he scribbled down the answer and progressed with question two.
He thought that if he finished as fast as possible, he might be allowed to leave earlier and could use the toilet then.
For about half an hour it all went really well.
Kayden was able to complete most of the tasks and if he didn’t know the answer to a question, he just marked it with a highlighter so he could think about it later.
His strategy was to finish the easier questions first so he would have enough time to complete the tough ones later.
Just two more hours, it’ll be just fine, he thought to himself after a quick glance to the big clock that hung at the front.
But Kayden could feel that his bladder didn’t share his thoughts.
It was really filling itself up now, he couldn’t deny that anymore, at least the pressure was still bearable.
But that would also be an illusion very soon, he knew that too well to be tricked.
At forty five minutes in, Kayden sensed a constant pulsing in his lower abdomen, waves of urgency shot through his bladder and intensified every time.
It was hard to hold the flood back during those seconds and he pressed his legs firmly together.
One time the urgency came in so fiercely that he bowed forward and quickly squeezed his dick.
Just for a second, it’ll help, he told himself.
It did help but only for that said second.
Kayden suddenly exhaled explosively because he realised how hopeless the situation was.
He wasn’t even in for an hour and there was still one and a half to go, he would never make it out with dry trousers.
The realisation sank in with a sickening feeling and he swallowed with uneasiness.
He had to hold it, didn’t he?
There was no other choice except for handing in the exam earlier and failing it by doing so because he hadn’t anywhere near finished it yet.
His rather loud exhaling in the complete silence of the room caused Inspector Blue to look up and ask: “Everything alright, Constable Dalton?”
Some of his colleagues turned their heads towards him because of that sudden distraction from the task at hand.
Kayden blushed slightly and quickly nodded.
“Yes, sir. Sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt in any way.”
“Oh, never mind.”
Blue’s friendly smile encouraged Kayden.
Should he maybe just ask to go to the toilet?
He wouldn’t make it without wetting himself, his bladder was sending him this signal very clearly at this point.
But could he ask?
How was he supposed to do it?
Well, just raising his hand and asking to go, when Blue addressed him, he guessed.
It really wasn’t that difficult but he hadn’t had much experience with it.
He always tended to rather hold it than ask because he felt too embarrassed to say something about his urgent need.
He couldn’t do that today, could he?
He would risk wetting himself for sure and that would be so embarrassing in front of all the others and Blue.
Kayden started to formulate the question in his head, building the words to a sentence, trying to make it sound good and not too childish or anything.
Asking to use the toilet was no big deal, everyone needed to, but still he felt ashamed by saying it out aloud, he couldn’t explain why, though.
Should he say “May I use the toilet” or “Can I use the toilet”?.
Surely “may” would be more respectful?
And he should add “please” for sure to be polite.
So, where to put the “please”?
In the middle of the sentence or at the end?
And he should add “Inspector” or “sir” for sure because he was speaking to a superior.
Maybe, when he was as polite as possible, Inspector Blue was more likely to let him go?
These were stupid thoughts all together, it wasn’t that difficult to ask for the toilet, for heaven's sake!
But the words danced around Kayden’s mind and he was very sure that somehow he would mess up the question when it came to actually voicing it to Blue.
The exam sheet laid in front of him but he had completely forgotten about it, it didn’t matter anymore.
His bladder was really full and swollen by now and every breath hurt.
The bladder seemed to shake and he felt as if it was going to empty itself every moment.
How could it have become that urgent so fast?
Kayden scissored his legs and squirmed in his chair, rocking back and forth constantly.
He was tapping his toes on the floor, just so gentle that it didn’t make any audible noise and from time to time he risked pinching his dick.
With the time continuing, he even kneaded his penis and finally, after 60 minutes in, he settled for grabbing his crotch firmly.
He was pinching it with thumb and index finger, then kneaded and massaged it before squeezing the tip of his penis shut.
Despite all these efforts, some spurts of pee escaped and dampened his briefs.
Damn!, he thought.
He looked down at his blue police trousers and wondered how much pee he could leak before the wetness would be visible.
Maybe the thick material would be absorbent.
At least that was what he hoped.
Well, if he had a full blown accident, his trousers wouldn't be able to absorb everything, that was for sure.
So he technically couldn't afford sitting there any longer, waiting for the inevitable to happen.
Kayden willed himself to just raise his hand but it wouldn't obey his brain.
He glanced over to Blue and his heart began to race and thump really fast just with the thought of having to ask.
But he had to!
The panic sent surges of distress through his stomach and he felt increasingly breathless because of sheer horror.
His bladder laid in his abdomen like a too big watermelon, ready to pop open and empty its contents in a dramatic manner.
He couldn't let that happen and he knew that with every further spurt and trickle of urine that seeped into his briefs although he tried everything possible to clamp it off.
He doubled over multiple times, shoving his hand into his crotch and holding his breath.
Every time he survived the ordeal without having an accident but he wasn't far from having one.
His sphincter was near to giving in and gave way to an almost constant leakage of little trickles.
He couldn't go on anymore, he hadn't written down an answer for over fifteen minutes.
He was done for it, he wouldn't pass the exam if he didn't go to the toilet now.
Kayden took one last deep breath that seemed to really press down on his tortured bladder and raised his hand.
Inspector Blue rose from his seat, his chair making a creaking noise on the floor.
He came over and halted in front of Kayden's desk.
“Yes, what is it?”
That was it.
No time for hesitation or embarrassment that would keep him away from relief.
“Sir, may I go to the toilet, please?”
Kayden almost whispered.
For one because he didn't want anyone to hear what he was saying and for the other because his voice shook so much with desperation that he didn't trust it enough to speak up loudly.
Blue frowned and Kayden felt his heart sinking.
He knew it.
The inspector was going to deny permission.
And if he did, the battle would be lost, there was no doubt about that anymore.
“Actually we prefer the trainees to stay inside the room during the exam”, Blue replied.
“Please, sir. Send someone with me if you must but please, please let me go. I really have to.”
Kayden was literally begging for permission now, clinging to the hope that Blue would understand the severity of his predicament.
The Inspector sighed.
“Well, Dalton, I'd rather not… Wait, did you drink all that water before the exam?”
Blue pointed at the half empty water bottle.
Kayden nodded.
Beads of sweat glistened on his forehead, his eyes started to water with pure desperation and he couldn't sit still.
He squirmed and shifted around like mad, couldn't keep his legs from moving frantically as well and had to grab his crotch again.
“Alright, then go. Use the toilet right down this corridor and make it fast.”
“Thank you, sir”, Kayden mumbled breathlessly, jumped up from his chair and ran out of the room.
He didn't care anymore if anyone knew about his situation, it was too urgent to think straight or be embarrassed.
Kayden sprinted down the corridor, it seemed endless.
Trickles of pee were running through his penis into his briefs and he pinched his dick hard but it was no use anymore.
His bladder was overflowing and released the wee bit by bit.
When Kayden pushed the door to the gents open, his urine was heavily spilling into his underwear.
He clutched his crotch in a last desperate attempt to clamp the flow off.
The nearest urinal was just five big steps away.
The pee was escaping fast.
Too fast to wait.
Desperately, almost in tears, Kayden unzipped his trousers with shaking fingers and pulled his dick out.
Pee was spraying out of it in a thick stream and he hastily ran towards the urinal and pointed the stream at it.
The flow gushed inside the porcelain basin and seemed to be never ending.
It made a lot of noise and shot out of Kayden with such a force that he began to feel lightheaded.
The relief was incredible and he felt his legs go wobbly as the excruciating pressure on his bladder gradually subsided.
He peed for a long time, at least for a minute and ended his massive wee with a loud sigh.
Just after he’d rinsed, Kayden suddenly realised how wet his briefs were.
He flinched and gave his police trousers a proper feel down at the area of his crotch.
He closed his eyes in resignation when he felt that they were wet too.
A quick panicked glance in the mirror showed him that the wetness was also visible as a big dark patch.
No way he could go back to the exam room being wet like that!
Everyone would be able to tell what had happened.
The fear and helplessness rose up in him, caused his cheeks to flush crimson and his stomach to churn in such a manner that he almost felt nauseous.
I have to do something - and fast, he thought.
There was just one option: He had to dry his briefs and trousers but that wasn’t the only problem to be solved.
His urine soaked clothes would smell bad very soon and then everyone would be able to identify him as the culprit of the smell.
No, he had to give them a wash down before.
But that would take time, a lot of time he didn’t have.
Anyways, he had to do it even if it wouldn’t help that much.
Not thinking about the exam anymore, Kayden stripped off his trousers and took his briefs off.
Then he put his trousers back on just in case someone might come in.
It would be very awkward if that person found him without trousers on.
Kayden quickly wet the briefs with water, rubbed them down with soap thoroughly and then continued with rinsing off the soap again.
It only took two minutes and after that he stuffed the soaking wet briefs into the hand dryer and hoped for the best.
Luckily it was one of those hand dryers that didn't stop blowing hot air until the hands - or the briefs in this case - were taken away again.
So Kayden could just stand there and wait without having to move the briefs in order for the dryer to start blowing air again.
Still it took some minutes for the cotton to get dry and when Kayden put them on again they were still a bit damp but he had no time to dry them any further.
So he repeated the procedure with his trousers, carefully paying attention to only wash the crotch area.
He wouldn’t be able to dry them in a short amount of time if he wet them with water completely, thick as the material was.
Even only that small part of the whole trousers took a lot of time and nerves to dry.
Same as the briefs they weren’t really dry but there was no visible wetness anymore.
When Kayden emerged from the gents, Inspector Blue came up to him.
“What have you been doing in there, Dalton? You were gone for almost fifteen minutes”, he said in an earnest voice.
Kayden swallowed, hoping that his still red face wouldn’t give him away as he answered: “Sorry, sir, I suddenly felt unwell and was afraid I might vomit.”
Blue’s stern expression softened on the spot.
“Oh, alright. That’s reason enough for sure. Are you feeling better now?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Do you think you can complete the exam today?”
“Yes, sir, absolutely.”
“Good. But I can’t grant you any extra time, the regulations are very strict. Actually, I haven’t even been allowed to let you use the toilet but well… I don’t want to be a monster.”
“That’s okay, I’ve only lost ten minutes, I’ll still be able to make it in time”, Kayden assured and they went back to the exam room where Sergeant Sunday had taken over the supervision of the other constables.
“Everything alright, sergeant, I’ll take over again now”, Blue told him and Sunday vanished through the door.
Kayden quickly refocused on the exam and to his surprise found that all the question were easy.
He could answer everything more or less correctly and finished just in time, enjoying his still lasting sweet relief.
After everyone had handed in their exam sheets, Kayden, Joe and Jamie left the room.
In the corridor, Jamie started: “Mate, what happened?”
“Yeah, where did you disappear to?”, Joe asked.
“Well, you knew that I was likely to need a piss in between, right?”, Kayden said cautiously.
Was he really ready to tell them what had happened?
It was really embarrassing, but well…
They were his mates.
Maybe it would make him feel less humiliated if they knew because they would surely understand.
“Yeah, and? Taking a piss is done in less than fifteen minutes, if I’m correct”, Jamie said.
Kayden sighed.
“It wasn’t taking the piss that took me so long. That was completed really fast. But well… I might have had a little accident…”
“You pissed yourself?!”, Joe exclaimed.
“Shut up, will you!”, Kayden hissed and looked around seeing other constables that stared in their direction, curiously.
“Let’s go somewhere more private”, Jamie suggested and they followed the corridor around the next corner where no one else was standing.
“Alright, what happened? Did you really wet yourself?”, Joe asked eagerly.
“Yes. I mean, no. Not really. I was just so desperate that I started going into my trousers before I reached the urinal. I didn’t really wet myself completely but it was a fair amount”, Kayden responded.
“What did you do?”, Jamie enquired.
“I washed my briefs and trousers and dried them in the hand dryer. That’s what took me so long.”
“And what did you tell Inspector Blue? He went looking for you, didn’t he?”, Jamie asked.
“Yeah, he did. I just claimed I felt sick and like vomiting. He didn’t inquire any further, thank heaven.”
Joe shook his head.
“Unbelievable that you’ve gotten through this without being discovered or getting in trouble. We’ll definitely remember that story, mate.”
He patted Kayden’s shoulder and laughed.
