Brian wrote: ↑27 Feb 2021, 10:11
It seems to me that science is still barely scratching the surface of all the intricacies and variations of gender identity and sexual identity. And one factor which doesn't help our general ignorance is that so few people discuss their deepest feelings even when they've worked them out themselves. This thread is quite remarkable in that people with our particular interest are talking about how it relates to themselves so frankly. I take my hat off to everyone who is being so open about themselves. Of course being among like-minded others does help when we talk so frankly.
It's a really interesting point, and I love using forums like this to explore my own feelings, and discuss them with other likeminded people. I have been very active on a couple of female desperation forums for years! I struggled for quite a long time with my "pee fetish" and even now I don't like using labels. Honestly, being able to find forums like these to realise I am not a "freak" and am not the only one turned on by something that so many people would brand disgusting, has really helped me to be myself, and now, when people send me private messages, I hope I help other come to terms with themselves! The desperation thing is one I struggled with, as it is, without a shadow of a doubt, my biggest turn on. Nothing arouses me more than seeing someone, absolutely frantic, almost in tears, right on the verge of wetting themselves in that last minute panic about what they can do, and I can only come to the conclusion that their pain and suffering has something to do with that.
As for sexuality, that is new as well. I never for a second, thought I would be turned on by watching guys piss, but, after reading a couple of male desperation fictions, I realised that, in some ways, they were more erotic to me than female fantasies, and I have watched a lot of male material online in the last few months. I still don't want to label that, and can't really ever imagine having sex with a guy, but then, who knows!
The most interesting thing is, I can talk this openly on a page like this, and that really helps, BUT, in real life, it is all a huge secret and I can't ever imagine opening up like this to someone in person! I guess we're all complex beings, and there are no right or wrong answers, but I for one am VERY pleased that sites like this exist, and thank god I didn't grow up with a pee desperation fetish in the 60s!
